What's worse than realizing you just had sex with your cousin?
Worse than sticking your dick in a glory hole, only to meet happy go braces on the other end of what's supposed to be three minutes of pleasure? I'll tell you what. Having a crush on a straight guy, that's what.
It's never happened to me before. If the dude is straight, yes I might still want to blow him... maybe I fantasize about him pounding me behind a good ol' BP station, but an actual crush? Never. Well, at least until now. I'm pretty sure the only reason I'm even crushing is because I'm not totally 100% sure he's all the way straight... Every time I'm convinced he's straight he does or say's something that makes me think otherwise. For example, we went out one night. Just he and I. He began to tell me about his X. OK, he's straight. Then he began to describe his type of "girl". Um, hello he described me to the T, only I don't have a vagina... yet. No, just kidding, I'd never castrate myself - I love my dick to much. So what does one do? I've been told to just make a subtle pass. I've been told to plant one on him. I've even been told to just slip him a mickey and when he wakes up the next morning with a funny feeling in his rear, he probably wont even ask. If he does, tell him he fell on a beer bottle the night before. When he asks why he woke up naked... just play dumb.
I'll continue to hang out with him. Pretend I'm not into his gorgeous face, and charming personality... I'll continue to be his friend, because at the end of the day, he really is a special and talented guy. I would hate to miss out on his friendship. And hey, you never know... maybe he's curious, or maybe he's straight. The mystery is what makes it exciting.